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I’ve been musing about my writing for a while now and I’ve been reminded how long it has been since I actually wrote anything. Which kind of annoys because I like writing. I like my fiction, I like my drabbles, I like my characters. I miss not writing
Of course I stopped because I tried to kick start it by re-reading what I’d written and... well... it’s drek (this is not your queue to leap up and say “NO sparky! it is not drek, it ascends to the stars and you should be hailed as the new Shakespeare.” My ego isn‘t that fragile and besides tastes differ considerably. There are people who love books that I consider utter drek and others who despise writing I consider essential life reading - so even if you do sing my praises - well, I still think it‘s drek). I’ll never like my own writing as a reader (because what I like writing - lots of world building, lots of tell not show, exceedingly long, tedious descriptions and generally dreadful pacing interspaced with HUGE infodumps - are things that frustrate to read unless done very well) and, let’s be honest, polished it isn’t. Hells, spell-checked it isn’t for the most part :P And that kind of thing is kind of disheartening
But then again - does it matter? I mean, I make no pretence to being a good writer. I most certainly am never going to be published or sell my work. I’m not aiming for a fanbase and following per se (though it always gives you a warn goooogly feeling when people have read my stuff. even if it is drek). I’m writing because I like writing and shoving it on journal because it’s a part of me and I like it there. And it’s my journal and I can if I want :P
In light of that - I enjoy writing, want to write and want to continue writing just to follow the stories through. It’s drek? So what, we can all giggle at the drek and read aloud the worst dialogues while drunk :)
So then I just have to poke my various thoughts down the right lines. Y’know what the problem is? I have like 10 billions ideas for NEW stories and bugger all idea how to continue the ones I’ve already written. And I can never end anything. Ever.
Still I am now making plans and this will be so.
I have some random non-sequiter Angel fic poking around somewhere. But it’s always non-sequiter. I like it that way.
I have this this lovely new setting I think is shiny and am going to write anyway even if it IS a new story and I’ll never finish it (because it’s my drek and I will if I want to :P). I don’t have a name for the series so I’m just going to call it Adracanta because that’s the name of the country. It means “random syllables Sparky rammed together because he liked the sound of them.”
Spark in Darkness needs a kickstart because I’ve got loads of Camaalis world building I want to work in somehow and damn it, someone’s going to have to do something just so I can fit in the infodumps! But I confess to being something at a loss.
Light & Dark is going to tangent down the paths of the destruction of Imperialism in addition to the decline of the Sidhe and fae in general (because it’s a theme I don’t want the story to ignore which it has rather to date which is both Shameful and Clueless).
Virtue of Steel gah, that’s just the drekkiest drek I ever drekked. But I love the world setting and it has a REALLY epic chapter so I’m going to do SOMETHING just so I can get to the epicness but I can’t hurry to the epicness or the epiccness will not be epic.
Reaching for the Sun Is in the middle of a storyline. And despite being drekier than most it has some characters I really like so I will drag it through that as something for a priority just for a resolve of a storyline.
Banked Embers Again, love the world setting - have no idea what to do next. I think it gets left on the backburner for a while at least until I’ve poked the others
Generation Gap Whoa this one’s dusty... Totally not in the mood for vampires though. And there’s so much angst it’s kind of dripping
Predator‘s Predator Again, not much in the mood for vampires and I’m not sure what i want to do with this. There’s 2 possibles and I’m not sure I like either of them... hmm I got to ponder.
Whitewolf based stuff I want to play in my own sandbox before I wallow in there’s for a while.
Damn. I completely lack focus don’t I? All these threads started and none finished. Ah well, it’ll get done. Maybe :P
Of course I stopped because I tried to kick start it by re-reading what I’d written and... well... it’s drek (this is not your queue to leap up and say “NO sparky! it is not drek, it ascends to the stars and you should be hailed as the new Shakespeare.” My ego isn‘t that fragile and besides tastes differ considerably. There are people who love books that I consider utter drek and others who despise writing I consider essential life reading - so even if you do sing my praises - well, I still think it‘s drek). I’ll never like my own writing as a reader (because what I like writing - lots of world building, lots of tell not show, exceedingly long, tedious descriptions and generally dreadful pacing interspaced with HUGE infodumps - are things that frustrate to read unless done very well) and, let’s be honest, polished it isn’t. Hells, spell-checked it isn’t for the most part :P And that kind of thing is kind of disheartening
But then again - does it matter? I mean, I make no pretence to being a good writer. I most certainly am never going to be published or sell my work. I’m not aiming for a fanbase and following per se (though it always gives you a warn goooogly feeling when people have read my stuff. even if it is drek). I’m writing because I like writing and shoving it on journal because it’s a part of me and I like it there. And it’s my journal and I can if I want :P
In light of that - I enjoy writing, want to write and want to continue writing just to follow the stories through. It’s drek? So what, we can all giggle at the drek and read aloud the worst dialogues while drunk :)
So then I just have to poke my various thoughts down the right lines. Y’know what the problem is? I have like 10 billions ideas for NEW stories and bugger all idea how to continue the ones I’ve already written. And I can never end anything. Ever.
Still I am now making plans and this will be so.
I have some random non-sequiter Angel fic poking around somewhere. But it’s always non-sequiter. I like it that way.
I have this this lovely new setting I think is shiny and am going to write anyway even if it IS a new story and I’ll never finish it (because it’s my drek and I will if I want to :P). I don’t have a name for the series so I’m just going to call it Adracanta because that’s the name of the country. It means “random syllables Sparky rammed together because he liked the sound of them.”
Spark in Darkness needs a kickstart because I’ve got loads of Camaalis world building I want to work in somehow and damn it, someone’s going to have to do something just so I can fit in the infodumps! But I confess to being something at a loss.
Light & Dark is going to tangent down the paths of the destruction of Imperialism in addition to the decline of the Sidhe and fae in general (because it’s a theme I don’t want the story to ignore which it has rather to date which is both Shameful and Clueless).
Virtue of Steel gah, that’s just the drekkiest drek I ever drekked. But I love the world setting and it has a REALLY epic chapter so I’m going to do SOMETHING just so I can get to the epicness but I can’t hurry to the epicness or the epiccness will not be epic.
Reaching for the Sun Is in the middle of a storyline. And despite being drekier than most it has some characters I really like so I will drag it through that as something for a priority just for a resolve of a storyline.
Banked Embers Again, love the world setting - have no idea what to do next. I think it gets left on the backburner for a while at least until I’ve poked the others
Generation Gap Whoa this one’s dusty... Totally not in the mood for vampires though. And there’s so much angst it’s kind of dripping
Predator‘s Predator Again, not much in the mood for vampires and I’m not sure what i want to do with this. There’s 2 possibles and I’m not sure I like either of them... hmm I got to ponder.
Whitewolf based stuff I want to play in my own sandbox before I wallow in there’s for a while.
Damn. I completely lack focus don’t I? All these threads started and none finished. Ah well, it’ll get done. Maybe :P
