And in the 'icky' section of the news

[sparkindarkness]

Weirdness. A couple of years back there was a scandal in our community in that the long term biology teacher at the school I attended turned out to be a paedophile (I don't know if he ever 'did' anything but he did have pictures of minors engaged in sexual acts and just naked on his computer).

At the time it was kind of weird with lost of ickiness. Especially since he was one of my favourite teachers. I was kind of really freaked when I learned - he was one of the BEST teachers at that school and one of my personal favourites, hows that for screwing up good memories? - frazzles the mind just a little. I think there's a closeted instinct in all of us that wants bad people to act like it all the time and have no good points and the universe goes 'ick' whenever we're proven wrong.

Anyway, cutting it short I freaked a little when I learned and surprised a few people.

NOW we have follow up of... details. Among these details is that for several years (most of his time at the school) he concealed hidden cameras in the boys and girls changing rooms and even shared some of the stills on the net. Freaky thing? I'm not freaked here, even though there's a pretty reasonable chance I could be on some of those photos when I was a little kiddie. C'mon, that SHOULD freak me out, right? But it doesn't.

My memory of a great teacher being torn into shreds freaked me more than the idea of a paedophile taking pictures of me as a child while changing them and possibly sharing them on the net. Go figure.

Sometimes I don't understand myself.

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[klgaffney.livejournal.com]

"We demand that people should be true to the pictures we have of them, no matter how repulsive those pictures may be: we prefer the true portrait in all its homogeneity, to one with a detail added which refuses to fit in." --pamela hansford johnson

one of my brother in laws is doing at least 30 yrs for god knows how many counts of molestation--his kids, the soccer team, etc. i always thought him odd, but so very small and frail and timid; laughably harmless but unfailingly kind.

you already freaked over the one detail that didn't make sense; one more makes everything just another part of the picture.

*hugs*

[sparkindarkness.livejournal.com]

People are complicated things, is all I can conclude. And even the best of people have a dark side, and even the worst of people have a light side.

I think that's it. I freaked because I didn't understand - and, I admit - because I didn't want to.I know people aren't simple, even if I want them to be, but it still isn't pleasant to have so many memories just, well, warped. It was like someone had taken some of my best days at school and twisted them.

The pictures don't bother me, they're just part of the pattern. A lot of people who went to the school are freaked at the idea that there may be pictures of them out there on the net. Doesn't bother me, not compared to my violated memories.

Still, it's all good. I got over the feak when I learned about it a few years ago. It's only because the picture story has come out and I'm NOT freaking that has me thinking