And all holidays have to end

So I acknowledge to myself that the staycation has to end sometime and sinmce I’m due back at work this Monday (however, given the weather situation – because the snow of doom has returned – that is somewhat questionable. Actually, my to-do list hasn’t actually swelled beyond what you’d expect from a holiday – I guess electronic paperwork can be done anywhere. And I haven’t had to deal with one fool client!)

So I am back. The holiday was… well everything I needed in many ways. It was peaceful. I forgot how much I valued peace, I forgot how much, at heart, I’m a hermit (Beloved doesn’t count because he knows when to give me the space I need). And it was just wonderfully recharging


What did I get done?

Nothing. Not a damn thing. I was singularly unproductive. I didn’t read anything I hadn’t read before, I didn’t watch anything I hadn’t watched before (this was a trigger free holiday, which meant no media could be trusted unless already managed). I must work not to make this a habit

Of course the flip side is I’m beginning to think hiding was very much just that – hiding. Pretending it’s not there. The problem with that is I’m now faced 8 kinds of “DO NOT WANT” when it comes to actually going back in the snake pit – which is all well and good, but the snake pit is the whole damn world and you can’t ignore the whole damn world.

Which makes me think that while I did need the break to recharge, it hasn’t been (SHOCK!) a magical instant cure to the do-not-wantness (are we surprised? No, we are not).


So, in my catching up, I’m putting up some more safe zones and USING them, for when I’m fragile. Yes yes I shall. Particularly I need to re-jig my RSS. My RSS is split into several sections from “fluff” (large amounts of comics and cute animals) to politics which is divided into various levels of safe spaces – from “dance around merrily this place is highly unlikely to spork” through to “oh dear gods you better have protective clothing if you’re going to venture in this cesspit”. What I am waking up to is the number of progressive/liberal sites that I’ve been labelling as a damn site safer than they are and then jumping in for a lot of sporking when I am not in the headspace to take it. Especially the pervasive “homophobia isn’t a REAL oppression” or “straight privilege isn’t a REAL privilege. Not really” that leaves its stain everywhere. So time to do some frank analysis.

I’m also planning more regular fluff time… but things are complicated because I also want to dive back into the charity work I’ve much neglected while I try to sort my crap out. Especially now when things are so tight. But that is bound to trigger me. Especially since they’re looking at alliances (again) with other non-LGBT charities… which has never ever ever ended well in the past.

Also I’ve kind of thrown a big chunk of reality at my parents before running away so at some point I’m going to have to deal with that. Hmmmm yeah, not going to be fun.

So, the world, how’s that been going? I have a lot of catching up to do.

Things I have seen, well, I’ve seen a whole lot of shitness I will be blogging about, but I’ll start on a high-note, DADT has been repealed.  At long last it has been repealed. Anyone in the military needs to hang back though since it’s not actually repealed until the President, the Secretary of Defense, and the Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff certify that the Defense Department is ready

Also, remember there’s no non-discrimination aspect tagged to this law. So gay soldiers can come out – but there’s zero realistic protection against any kind of discrimination from their peers, their superiors, anyone. Still a lot to do there – but I’ll take a party excuse any day

Still some good news to get me back in the game. I likes it I does.