Bithing and moaning and whining
Nov. 8th, 2007 11:30 amI am returning to reality, kinda. Health is.... about 80% enough to work with anyway. Mood? I think that can be best described as "anti-social and psychotic." My hermit instincts have been very good lately, all through the flu and nasty nasty pneumonia they've held themselves back and tolerated the CONSTANT COMPANY. They even gave me a week to catch up on my work load (heh, like a week is enough!) Now they're back with a vengeance. I need to be alone NOW. Completely alone! The only living creatures allowed to violate this privacy are trhe cat and Beloved IF he comes with alcohol and he may stay only until said alcohol is consumed.
I think next week (or the week after) I'm going to have to be extra nice to people to make up for the utter bastardness displayed now. Someone sitting quietly in the same room (hells, the same house) as me is vastly enraging to me at the moment.
Samhain. I need Samhain again, I think. I was too ill during the actual Sabbat. I'm waaay too out of balance with myself considering it's just after a Sabbat, I should be centred right now and I'm shattered instead - which annoys me more because my annual rhythms are all out of whack - Sabbats are when I get my life and self together and sorted. I think i need to take some time out - just me and my altar to set myself right again
I think next week (or the week after) I'm going to have to be extra nice to people to make up for the utter bastardness displayed now. Someone sitting quietly in the same room (hells, the same house) as me is vastly enraging to me at the moment.
Samhain. I need Samhain again, I think. I was too ill during the actual Sabbat. I'm waaay too out of balance with myself considering it's just after a Sabbat, I should be centred right now and I'm shattered instead - which annoys me more because my annual rhythms are all out of whack - Sabbats are when I get my life and self together and sorted. I think i need to take some time out - just me and my altar to set myself right again