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Meeting, affiancing and marrying Beloved.
Sep. 16th, 2007 06:37 pmMeeting, affiancing and marrying Beloved.Hmmm, caslayerboi asked about this and it occurred to me that, these AREN’T things I’ve journaled about. I’m trying to figure out why. It’s not because they’re too personal - I mean, I journaled my angst because beloved DID bring up the subject of marriage once (I‘m sure those who were reading my journal back then will remember the uber-silliness http://sparkindarkness.livejournal.com/32160.html), so it‘s hardly outside my comfort zone.
So I’m trying to think why. I think one point is that, in my head, Beloved has always been there. Even when I look back and remember, I tend to picture him in a corner somewhere, even if he wasn’t. Even if it was a time before we’d even met, my memory inserts a Beloved. And on some level, he’s always been the other half, the partner, the spouse, even when we were just friends and even before we signed the legal document. It just didn’t flip over and change anything
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So I’m trying to think why. I think one point is that, in my head, Beloved has always been there. Even when I look back and remember, I tend to picture him in a corner somewhere, even if he wasn’t. Even if it was a time before we’d even met, my memory inserts a Beloved. And on some level, he’s always been the other half, the partner, the spouse, even when we were just friends and even before we signed the legal document. It just didn’t flip over and change anything
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