Bithing and moaning and whining

[sparkindarkness]

I am returning to reality, kinda. Health is.... about 80% enough to work with anyway. Mood? I think that can be best described as "anti-social and psychotic." My hermit instincts have been very good lately, all through the flu and nasty nasty pneumonia they've held themselves back and tolerated the CONSTANT COMPANY. They even gave me a week to catch up on my work load (heh, like a week is enough!) Now they're back with a vengeance. I need to be alone NOW. Completely alone! The only living creatures allowed to violate this privacy are trhe cat and Beloved IF he comes with alcohol and he may stay only until said alcohol is consumed.

I think next week (or the week after) I'm going to have to be extra nice to people to make up for the utter bastardness displayed now. Someone sitting quietly in the same room (hells, the same house) as me is vastly enraging to me at the moment.

Samhain. I need Samhain again, I think. I was too ill during the actual Sabbat. I'm waaay too out of balance with myself considering it's just after a Sabbat, I should be centred right now and I'm shattered instead - which annoys me more because my annual rhythms are all out of whack - Sabbats are when I get my life and self together and sorted. I think i need to take some time out - just me and my altar to set myself right again

Comments

[logophilos.livejournal.com]

You know what you need? A nice self-catering cottage up in the Hebrides. Just you, beloved, no phones, no relatives....

Or somewhere, anyway. With your altar (is it portable?)

I'm glad you're feeling better, and I sympathise with the antisocial feelings. I find the company of more than two people for more than half a day sends me screaming into the wildnerness.

[klgaffney.livejournal.com]

yeah, and it always seems like you find yourself up to your ears in company around the time you've decided that other human life is just the bane of your existence, and where is that zombie apocalypse we were promised? *sympathy* hopefully you can escape and recharge soon.

[semiotic-pirate.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Hope you feel less antisocial soon. You may be feeling like that because the uninterrupted rest might be helpful for your recovery now.

[sparkindarkness.livejournal.com]

That sounds heavenly. I have done it before and the peace just opens up and swallows you. There is just oooooone tiny snag.

Hebridies? In November? Are you INSANE!? There isn't enough whisky in Scotland to endure that much cold! I will freeze under the slate grey skies under flurries and flurries of drifting snow *shudders*

My altar's kind of portable, but I generally think that if any place is holy every place is holy. It's a tool, not a necessity :) i can find divinty even on, saaaay, a sunswept beach of my own private island drinking Mai tais.


Thankee. During the illness I was too miserable to be bothered by it, but it's like I've had all the.... frustration saved up for when I'm not ill any more.

[sparkindarkness.livejournal.com]

I want my apocalypse! I hope you're treaching your children the necromantic arts!

[sparkindarkness.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I need a hermitage for a while, then I'll feeeeel so much better. It could be tiredness, btu I think the main thing is I always NEEDE some "me" time. I'm nto a naturally social person given the choice - and for the last few weeks I've basically been forced by illness and helpfulness to accept complete lack of privacy. It's grated on my hermit nerves

[logophilos.livejournal.com]

In november, Mull is warmer than Hull - no snow, I guarantee. Just enough chill to make woollens and snuggling all good fun :)

MIght be a bit windy, that's all!

[mrmeval.livejournal.com]

Needing time alone is just that and it can do wonders for you. I've only told an employer to ESAD once and took a 4 day weekend but it was worth it.

[sparkindarkness.livejournal.com]

The problem is that there arer a lot of annoying social people out there who don't understand why we need alone time

[sparkindarkness.livejournal.com]

*suspicious*

Snuggling is alllllways fun :)